The spiritual journey into breast cancer has asked me to set priorities in life. The most pressing among those being the passing of time. To have breast cancer hope at all is to be aware of my time, both the use of and enjoyment therein. Hope for breast cancer is from both spiritual awareness and physical healing. But why does it take this? Have you also asked this question?
To be clear, I have not been told I have three months to live. But from the beginning I have taken the more morose approach to this breast cancer thing, only in hopes that I would not waste time, though in looking back I feel I have done so. I have not. In the end, I realize that I am preparing for more time though it is quite possible we will all discover this was not time at all we experienced but a dream and a connection with our Creator in the most intimate way ever imagined. I decided to focus more on the experience than the possibilities.
Breast Cancer Hope Renewed
Here is more of what I decided as I went through the last year…..
- I decided not to spend time fighting the neighbor’s outside wood boiler furnace that had practically destroyed my immune system and lungs, rather to move away from it, all cost.
- I decided to wear my best clothes to normal day places, even at home,
- to sell the boxes of dug vintage bottles that I had been hauling from one move to the next, in hope the cash will pay for more treatments that could set my physiological system aright so I may have a wonderful quality of life, I needed the alternative for breast cancer hope,
- to dance with myself,
- howl with my dog,
- laugh at Hubby’s jokes more often, funny or not,
- to stand and stare more often, just be, like the sheep and cows beneath the clouds and trees,
- to become more autonomous with friends, quality of time with each rather than in a group,
- therefore spending more time with immediate family, though not as an extreme caretaker who they could not live without, more the friend and maternal guide,
- to once again attempt container gardening, then throw in a long row inground… though the wonder garden is a dismal unsuccessful event at present… and, though next year I will forget that this is not how I want to again spend my time, energy and money and will once again garden only to again recall in late-July that this is not how…… no matter how many times my sister reminds me….. and we get the picture.
- For breast cancer hope, I decided to read more, television less, focusing on the 5,000 years of cultural and medical wisdom that very well might get me out of this cancer challenge.
- I decided to find kindred spirits who needed hope while dealing with breast cancer.
- I decided to write again, this being my reason for living. About breast cancer and hope and humor and spiritual connections.
- I decided to write all the stories I thought I had forgotten…. because now that I have experienced memory anew, and tenaciously relearned so much I had forgotten, I am encouraged to once again write, while simplifying my passions and multiple career choices, all of which I had forgotten and relearned too. I am now focused with intense clarity. I did not know that these kindred spirits were to be my heroes who would hold me up to my writing, encourage me, and so many from the breast cancer world who offered hope in living and dying, those who loved the little stories as I practiced linking a few sentences then more.
One of my medical heroes was Dr. Edward Bach, a homeopath and vibrational medicine scientist who understood the need for noninvasive medicine. When told he had three months to live he stood up to take the challenge, awake day and night — which I do not condone as this ages a person and does not allow the healing to take place during the sleep we need. But Dr. Bach pressed forward within this time frame, accomplishing all the things that he had wanted to do, then organizing his lifetime of work so his legacy could be deciphered. He lived much longer than three months, by the way. His story reminds me of the quote by another Bach, the author of Illusions and Johnathan Livingston Seagull, Richard Bach.
“Here is a test to find whether your mission on earth is finished: If you’re alive, it isn’t.”
Richard Bach, quoted from motivational / spiritual book, The Path of the Everyday Hero, and spiritual fiction novel, A Breath Floats By, among others.
A favorite book I cannot be without is Outsmart Your Cancer by Tanya Harter Pierce. I note it is breast cancer hope, that is not part of the title.
This spiritual journey into breast cancer is asking me to arise at dawn, truly, so the time passage is not so swift, there is much to write and so few the hours in the day. And that to me, true passion renewed, thus breast cancer hope renewed.
Essa Adams is a writer and green entrepreneur.